hold your breath

I always need a plan for myself. I always need direction. I need to know where I am going and what I want to do when I get there. 

I had a plan and now I have to reevaluate that plan. I hate doing this. 

I don’t want to go to NHIA, I didn’t even like it when I went there for my interview. 

I hated the curriculum guide. 

I know I shouldn’t really be complaining because I have this amazing internship with Marrero Weddings and Events. Paula is amazing and works with really well known designers, caterers, and even famous chef Todd English, who she worked with for years in the food industry. The photographers that the business works with are phenomenal and I’m really hoping that Karla, Paula’s business partner, lets me handle some of the camera work. It would just be really great to get a good portfolio going outside of college. 

I just hope that I’m making the right choices because I’m not completely sure of myself which isn’t me. It’s weird when you have to step outside of your normal routine self and try to figure out what direction you are heading in, its something I’ve never really done before. 

I’ve never been this unprepared for life, or what is coming next. I don’t know. 

B.U. has an amazing hospitality program..if only I had the grades, the money, and the closer distance to be able to go there…

UGH

Anonymous: It's too bad you're into girls. I wish i had a shot, you're beautiful, talented, and an all around incredible girl.

Thanks Ahah. I’m sorry, I’m passionately in love with a beautiful woman. But I’m sure you will find a beautiful girl for yourself.

“It is what it is” someone once said.

The person who said that, has failed me

failed the futures of students who would have thrived in an amazing environment where kids had names, kids had attention, kids were not just students, they were people.

Never in my life, will I step foot into another school that will take my breath away as much as Chester did. 

I am amazed at the hidden talent that people overlook because of its’ size. 

Let me tell you something,

size does not matter. 

Chester College was one of a kind and I can’t even comprehend that it is done, closed.

The faculty, the staff. Their inspiration has been such a blessing for me. To have teachers that interact with their students, laugh with them, ask about their lives.

I can’t even believe it. 

I can’t even speak.